I went with my friends Dan and Lauren out on the town.  Of course we went in style.  Fun!  That’s me as Slash and Dan as Brent Michaels.  One of the local bars was having a rock musician night so we dressed up and met up with some of their friends for a great night.

The fun started with looking  for items for my costume.  That is an adventure in itself.  I was pretty excited when I found these rockin jeans straight out of the eighties.  Finding leather pants at the thrift store wasn’t happening.  Then I saw them.  The 80′s guess jeans that had some shiniy material on them.  Even better was the fact that I was able to wear them and they were a size 31.

The event started at a downtown hotel.  We were then wisked by limo to the event.  It was hillarious.  We had to walk the red carpet and were interviewed by a couple of reporters.  Then it was a night of dancing with other rock stars that crossed the whole spectrum.

I’m not much of a dancer, but I really enjoyed it.  

It was a really great day.

Went on a second date with Christmas card girl last night.   We went and saw the movie Slumdog Millionaire.  A really awesome movie.  Highly recommend it.   I don’t think I could have seen a better movie for the situation. 

At the end of the date.  it was pretty obvious that Christmas card Girl had no interest in me.   I don’t know if she was someone to date or not.  I was still trying to figure that out.   Regardless it hurts.  I really was hoping it would be someone I would connect with.  I was excited about the possibility of meeting somone special and it didn’t turn out to be the case.   Disappointing.   I realize that not everyone is going to connect.   That is why we date.  I’m just really ready to meet someone special.

The hard part is that it is one more addition to a recent string of rejections.   Even though I may very well have come to the conclusion that she wasn’t my type, it really makes you question yourself.  Also is frustrating because I know that I’m  a great guy.      

The movie showed how insignificant moments and events in our lives may very well turn out to be quite significant.   It was a very powerful story.

I am really struggling to write and it’s frustrating.  I really wish I could describe what I want to say.  I guess all I can say right now is that the  movie was significant for me.  Maybe “it is(was) written” for me to see it.  It was uplifting and turned out to be the perfect movie for the situation.  And the title?   Watch the movie….I think you will like it.

Oh and there are always other holidays for handing cards out:)  Buy stock in Hallmark.

I joined facebook last night.  I have been so reluctant.  It just seems like it would be a lot of work keeping it updated.  Not so.  It has been fun seeing how people connect.  Wow it has been fun.  If you have never done it I encourage you to do so.  It’s that idea of six degrees of seperation.  Or that famous philosophy of spheres.  The guys that thought that up must be brilliant:)

Saw a good quote today…

Nobody gets to live life backward.  Look ahead, that is where your future lies-Ann Landers

I think the light bulb is on.   It is growing bright.   Now it’s just learning how to use it it properly.

The light bulb.  I think it’s a high wattage one.  Or maybe a halogen.  I really get it.  I haven’t always.  Now it’s transfering the getting it to feeling it.  Not having to tell myself that yes I am indeed thinking wrongly.

Those thoughts of doubt were there.  However, I acted on what I felt and what I wanted to do. 

It was that action that I so wanted to do this year.  I need to keep doing that.  Go with it.

update:  glad I took the leap.  IT was a great choice.  Brought a smile.

Sometimes you really notice change.

The other day when I visited wisdom(see previous post) I was struck by many thoughts and emotions. I wish I could have captured all of them. This still sticks with me though.

Free time usually consisted of
Making your own entertainment. It was beautiful and I made the best of it with hiking and skiing. Exploring new places. With that you are lest with your own thoughts. I don’t know how to describe it but basically you better enjoy your own company.

There is the term best friend. I don’t know if there is such a thing. I now realize that people all bring different things into our lives.

I am fortunate to have some very close friends and especially lucky to have a couple that can best be described as very special. Not the short bus
Type of special. And I mean mo offense by that comment because I should have a seat on there.

If I was forced to say who my best friend is I would have to say myself. I can totally hang with myself. As the summer came to a clos my boss offered me a permanent position. It would have been a great opportunity. However, I didn’t want to live in such isolation. I wanted to be around people. I love being around people.

I know the above are opposites. I think the point that strikes me is that you must enjoy yourself I’m order to have good relationships with others.

I’m at a really good point. I just feel the change I’m me. I’ve lived it. A step that has taken me to a new place. Not that it was bad before. Just some big realizations.

I know that many peoe make resolutions for the new year. Last year it was to lose weight and become healthier.

This year it is to let my actions speak for themselves.

I also enter the year with such a positive outlook. There are so many possibilities. Wonderful possibilities. I know there will be roadbumps. Nor will I be perfect. However I know I can tackle anything that may come my way.

It trully is going to be the best year yet. At least until the next year rolls around. I wish you all the best this year.